Monday, October 22, 2012

on life lately....

hello my lovelies. boy, do i miss blogging properly but being limited is working for me right now. life right now feels: crazy, overwhelming, tiring, complicated and stressful BUT i am so grateful for everything that is happening right now. i just have to keep positive and that is really what is helping me right now, that and hanging out with friends. i normally am one of those people that hates doing stuff after work. i just want to go home and chill out and relax but these past two weeks i have been going out to dinner with friends, celebrating birthdays and catching up with my mom. it has been great, it keeps my mind off the stuff that bums me out.
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right now, i feel so grateful for the people in my life, off line and on line. having such wonderful people in my life has been what gets me through the day. my co workers at the tattoo shop are some of those people. they are always happy to see me, make me laugh and have really welcomed me with open arms. my buddy at the shop was awesome enough to being his spare tattoo machine parts and friday we fixed my shitty machine, it still sucks but i got it to run properly and have a better understanding off how it works and how to trouble shoot it if it starts acting up again. we also started putting together a shading machine but we were missing a part so we will attempt finishing it in a few weeks. tattooing is getting easier each time, i feel slightly more confident, not ready yet to tattoo a real person but im making my way. this week i am hitting up mexican super markets to get some pig skin! creepy yes but it is the next best thing to real skin. i have so much determination and soooo much overwhelming support, its crazy. i am a lucky lady. but even still i have doubts. it is true what they say, you are your own worst enemy but i am determined enough not to let myself get in the way of something so important to me. i have to keep my eye on the prize, keep my head high and know that even the most skilled artists have their bad moments.
xo,
cb

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  1. go CB go!!!!! you can do this! soak it all up girly <3 <3

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  2. Ooh please show us your practice tatts - it's so fascinating! Sarah xxx

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    1. Doing some pig skin today!!! Very excited to show!

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  3. Oh lady, you've totally got this. One day, I'll be saving my pennies to get a cb original piece. xoxo

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    1. Thanks jordan! I cant wait for the day we get to meet!!!

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  4. Congratulations CB, I'm so happy for you!

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  5. Such a happy post! Some people can't tattoo at all (me, for example!), so I think it's badass you're able :) I just couldn't get the hang!

    Alli xx

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    1. Thanks alli, i just got keep practing and i know i will master it! Fake it till you make it right?

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  6. Keep it up! I really think a HUGE part of being happy is being grateful, you are getting it! Who knows since I'm in Portland, you might put some ink on me one day :)

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    1. Yes i think knowing what you have is what keeps you going you know and makes you happy about all the things going on in your life. Im sure ill be up in portland tattooing some day for sure!

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  7. That is such a cute picture! Seeing you tackle this new endeavor has been SO inspiring! I love that you went for it and are putting in so much hard work to take this new step! o

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    1. That means soo much to me to know that my journey is inspiring! You are doing great too sweetie!

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  8. I cant wait to see how you explain buying massive quantities of pig skin to the supermarket owner. :)

    Keep your chin buddy and your head held high. Going after your dreams isnt always easy but it is always worth it.

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    1. Tom went and bought it for me yesterday and the guy knew exactly what he wanted it for and how to cut it for him. Awesome! This is a crazy ride but so great and one i will always remember!

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  9. gurl, you can do this. do it for team brunette chicks rock!!
    sorry you've been down lately... me too : (

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    1. Hahah yea! Brunettes kick ass!!!!!!! I hope you feel better soon melina! I dont like knowing your down :(

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  10. You are a flaw free tattoo goddess! Anytime you're feeling lonely just call our house number and I'll have the kids babble at you :3

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    1. Even better, we get to see you tomorrow!

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  11. thats a lovely photo you loook so happy :) I'm sure you are the best tatooist around! i'd trust you!

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  12. Ah yes, I can def be my own worst enemy as well but that is amazing to hear you've had such amazing support from your new coworkers so far & esp great you have old friends anf fam to spend time with -that's always a huge pic-me-up for me and i really need to do that more... & AAAH pigskin! that is actually awesome and def great to work on before "real" skin. you are amazing!!
    http://dusanabotswana.com

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    1. Yea being around people is such a pic me up! Thank goodness for friends! Oh yea doing the pig skin today!

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  13. You are going to be the BEST tattoo artist! I was actually wondering if you would be tattooing pigskin - I thought that was about as close as you could get to people skin. You know I'm there in like 6 months right? You best be ready for me;)

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    1. Thanks trees! Yup gonna tattoo today! So gross but awesome at the same time! Sooo gonna be ready for you!

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  14. Friends hold worlds together. Good luck and keep up looking at the positives ;-) x

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  15. you are kicking ass cristie! I know it is exhausting and overwhelming but nothing great comes easy... and time passes so quickly, this rough patch will pass and you will be on the next level before you know it. :) I adore you!
    xoxoxo!
    Des.

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    1. This made me smile, thanks des! Your the best! I love you always positive attitude! I adore you too sweet pea!
      Xoxoxo

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  16. So, I'm really glad that you are getting out and about. Being around people is so healthy for you. I'm the same way, I love to relax after work and if I'm down I tend to go into my cocoon but friends lift your spirits in this magical way and it's so important to be around people you love. I'm glad you're taking such good care of yourself. That's an awesome photo by the way.

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    1. I always never want to go out after work but then sooo happy when i do! It feels great after and friendships are so important.

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  17. I totally know how you feel! I feel like I am in the same boat with you in terms of being busy. I can't seem to tread water fast enough right now. You are so lucky and fortunate to have people around you who are supportive and loving! That is so important! I am supporting you from afar and wish the best for you!

    I can't believe you have to find pig skin... eeeeek! I know you aren't the first person to use that as tattoo practice and you won't be the last. I am sure you will do great and be ready to tattoo people very soon!

    Don't judge yourself too harshly. You are accomplishing major MAJOR things right now and that is so admirable. Keep trucking, girl!

    Sending you much love!

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    1. Well at least we are feeling the same way together, nice to have a partner, no? You know i am supporting you too sweetie, i am so inspired by you and your love of art and history and bringing to all together! Tattooing that pigskin today!!!!!!!!! Aaahh! I am so harsh to myself, i have to trick myself somehow into thinking the opposite. It will come. Thank you for your kind words kristen. I am so lucky to know you! Xoxoxoxxo

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  18. I'm glad you wrote this because I'm going through a similar phase at the moment: I feel like I'm constantly on the verge of feeling overwhelmed, even though great things are happening and I'm pursuing something I've wanted to do for a long time. So good luck for both of us, and a virtual hug and a high five from over on this side of the pond x

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    1. Another person going through the same thing! Well i am glad i am not the only one trying to reach what they want! We can do this eleni!!! Good luck too sweetie and another high five to you too!! Xoxoxo

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  19. I think what you're doing is so awesome. I've never really known a tattoo artist before but the process is fascinating to me. It's such a challenge and I'm so impresses by how hard you've been working. you inspire me to work harder too. keep it up girl!!!!

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  20. oh how i get you with pretty much everything here cb. i've felt the same way and it's tough at times to balance certain aspects out the way you'd like. you're doing a great job! right on with keeping your touch-stone pals close by, this makes life that much more dealable. girl, there's a ton of folks who haven't even got a clue what their passion is, let alone how to reach it. you've got that nailed in tight, well done! keep going, you're rocking this journey to its core. blessings. xo ♥

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  21. I understand how you feel, am a bit overwhelmed myself at the moment with my business, but its so exciting as well! I know you will succeed in everything you want to do, you've got the talent and ambition! Good luck sweetie!

    xo L

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  22. I totally understand how you feel - it's tough to feel frustrated and overwhelmed and at times to not be able to fix it right away. I'm so glad that you have such wonderful and supportive people in your life to help you through these times - I know that nothing helps me like a good talk with my mom and dad and Jim. I hope that things get better - and I can't forget to mention what a gorgeous picture that is!

    XO

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  23. sweetheart, what you're doing is amazing, not only are you following your dreams (and it's so wonderful that you have such great support from those guys in the tattoo shop) but you're also still doing your day job, and doing all those day to day things we all have to do.
    You are wonderful and deserve everything good that life can bring you. I know it can be overwhelming, especially when there isn't enough time in the day (& I definitely know that feeling of just wanting to crash after work), but it'll all be worth it to reach that place where you're heading, and to have such a wonderful support network is so important.
    You are my inspiration, and as always I'm wishing you every bit of luck and strength, remember, you are amazing! xox

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thanks for commenting! it fills me with joy that you have taken the time to stop by!
xo,
cb